well...kyle and i broke up about 2 months ago.
i started college last week.
ive failed my driving test, twice.
im all healed and healthier since my surgery.
yeah...lifes...."going", i guess.
i really hope school comes in handy later in life!

well....
kyle and i are great
im getting surgery on june 18th
and....
prom is next week...woot woot

graduation june 1st...yay

GAME LAST NIGHT:
it went well...
i think...
im wsick of everyone freaking complaining though!
why cant you all suck it up and try to have a good time instead of trying to bring EVERYONE down with you?
damn...
its people like you that make our band bad...not the band director
if you would just try to smile and say "lets do this, lets have fun and kick butt" instead of complaining of how much me "suck"(which we dont suck that bad) and how "sucky" the director is (which he isnt THAT bad) and just have a good time and ENCOURAGE your band...then maybe ....just maybe people would have a better time doing what we all love to do!
please be more possitive...
is everyone was like "hey, how are you, lets have a great time and get this" we would prolly have more than three song on the field and we would all have something BIG to smile about...but no!
thanks to people that i wont name, its not fun anymore!
*tear*
well you know what...
percussion is going to have fun...
you know why?
bc we can look past things and see the good...
and the good is that we love band and we are going to have a GREAT year weather we have a new band director or not...be we are more into music then you are.
if you had more respect for music, you wouldnt have the odasity to bitch and moan...
you would be laughing and READY TO WORK!
so to you all that "hate this" ...SUCK IT UP!

CHELZ:
your doin great...
thanks for having hope.
and GO ON GIRLY...
you rock!

KJ:
i miss him
*smile*
i get to see him this weekend ....YAY

KYLE:
6 more days till our anniversary!
woot woot

ok...have a GREAT weekend everyone
we had a good game
we won and...didnt sound to bad either.
im proud!
(but yet again, im an optimist, unlike most!)

*kisskiss*
~Emmy

i have almost no time to write...

i have to leave for the airport in like 5 min...

IM GOING TO FLORIDA FOR A COUPLE DAYS!!!

well...

last night was A BAD NIGHT

anything you could possibley think of, went wrong....*grr*

it was horrible...

anyhoo...

ok, im leaving now...

ill miss you, see you tuesday!

*muah*

~Emmy

i dont really have time to write...but ill give a quick update on my "life"

YESTERDAY:
hung out with perz and kyle
then
kyle, kj, lanz, megz, gabz, pete, perz, and i went to monerreys
FUNFUN
then we went to my apartment and hung out in a circle on my tennis court in the dark playing the "question game" *teehee*
it was fun...

TODAY:
pete and i wrote out a cadence together
"snickers"
its a cadence from my school in FL
THATS RIGHT BIOTCHEZ, WE ARE PLAYING MY CADENCES THIS YEAR!
woot woot

ok...kisskiss
end

Well...here i go again

YESTERDAY:
woke up
got a shower
went to kyles
hung out with him
he taught my how to play vs. (card game)
-it was kind of lame
but fun none the less

lanz picked us up
we went to borderlands
(kyle had some card compitition thing)
-pretty lame again, but cute!
we were bored
we walked around a little bit and saw a comic book that said "sad sack"...it was REALLY funny
then lanz picked some "game peice" up that looked likea cotton ball and i was like "eww" and
she went to wipe her finger on my arm and accidently wiped my boob
IT WAS SO FUNNY
then she was like "omg, i didnt mean to do that emmy" and went to hug me and hit me in the head with her phone,
IT WAS HILARIOUS
-guess you had to be there
and there was this freaky 26 year old bold guy starring at lanz(icky)

then kj came to borderlands
lanz and kj played chess while kyle finished his last game
kyle got 5th place(bc he was late and missed a round)

then us three went to waffle house
kj ate toast and hash browns
lanz ate...something with egg and spuds
kyle got some meal thing
and i ate cheese burgers and spuds!

kj and kyle then started to cover crackers in tobasco sauce and eat them,
it was SO funny
their eyes got all watery...
it was SO ADORABLE!

aww, kj and kyle are so cute,
i love them!

after waffle house
lanz took kyle home
and kj took me home
on the way i talked to kj
later that night some crap went down with my own probs and i vented to kj for like 30 on the phone

KJ:
he is so sweet
i dont think he knows how many heart he touched non-intentionally
hes always there when you need him
hes always there to listen
to tell you to put your chin up
he means well almost always and tries to make the best of things
he doesnt know how much i care about him
i value his friendship very much!

LANZ:
she really cares about me, and im not used to that
shes for real, and im not used to that
but she is SO MUCH FUN
and her and i could talk FOREVER
people dont give her enough credit
she really is a great person
i love you lanz
you rock

PETE:
he called me today to talk about the meeting tonight
him and i are trying to pla a precussion camp prier to band camp
we will go over cadences and warm ups and basics
im excited!

ok, thats about it

MEETING:
im not allowed to go till i clean the house
i have to do the dishes(there are a lot of them)
i have to vaccum
and do laundry
wish me luck
...see you guys tonight

end

YESTERDAY:
Well, i did nothing all day
lanz came over
we ate beef stew
and, thats it!
kyle called, i talked to him...
he went to sleep,
i stayed up and talked to other people

STEVEN:
i talked to steven for EVER last night
i talked to him till like 5:59am!
WOWZERZ...teehee
he made me feel better and told me i was pretty, yay!

ANYHOO:
im going to kyles when he gets off work

FAKE ASS PEOPLE:
you know what i hate?
FAKE PEOPLE
i hate it when people are like "yay emmy, i love you, we have to hang out more"
then dont ever come around
if you dont want to be my friend because of A STUPID ASS REASON then DONT
i hate it when people arent OUT with the truth and just say how they feel

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE:
you want to be my friend?
you "like" me?
you think we should hang but conviently have no time?
SHOW IT~!
im sick of you pretending like you are my friends
you dont even talk to me not alone like me
you arent even around...

its like you dislike me because i am me and not who people want me to be
unlike you, im not shallow
i forgive people
i know when people deserve another chance!

i hate this shit
i hate being on two sides
i want to be your friends but i feel like you dont even care
you dont even like me
let alone want me around

why cant everyone drop the bullshit and shake hands already...
oh wait, people it would be FAKE!

i thought you were my friends
i thought you cared about me
i thought you liked having me around
but i was wrong

you guys dont give a rats ass about me
you are too rapped up in your own drama to even think about me as my own person
you arent my friends after all
and that REALLY hurts me!

it really does effect me
because at one time i thought you were the best
i loved you more than anyone
no one was ever so sweet to me
and this really sucks
im not mad, im hurt!
and i will not let people hurt me that arent worth my worry~!

wowzerz,
not im all *grr*

im gonna go chill...ALONE!
end

~Emily Rae

SLEEP:
after lanz dropped me off i went back to sleep and slept thill 5
then kyle picked me up and i spent the day with him

KYLE:
he is really great
he and i had a really GREAT day yesterday.
it was fun, and we kissed A LOT (more than norm)
but it was different yesterday for some reason
i just felt like him and i were closer!
its like everytime we looked at each other we just wanted to smile(and did)
...any hoo
i wanted to see him this morning before he went to his friends house but he said he just wants to go over there...
*grr*
i would have liked to see him today(even if for just an hour)
these are the things im talking about
why does it always have to be convient to him?
he grat and i love him but sometimes he just drives me bonkers
(like this)
whats an hour to spare?
something that he cant do for me?
whatever...
i wont waste my time worrying ona boy!

LANZ:
i made her a myspace, but i cant get a hold of her to tell her yet!
*frown*
golly-i hope she likes it

TODAY:
i have NOTHING to do!
what can i do today?
well...
i could call Britz

BRITZ:
i havent talked to her all summer(except once)
SHE DOESNT CALL
or answer my calls
the one time i talked to her she said shed call me back so we could do something
but she didnt
damn it
its like...am i her friend or not?
*pout*
i hate it when people change on you
she was so great
i thought i could see her as like my best friend and then she does this!
*grr*

MY PHONE:
i love it!!!

ok...

BAND MEETING 14TH:
i need to call Pete and see what we are going to do
JAMES QUIT
i idea is that i can play quint and through momo on a bass...
then i think we will be okay
i have to talk to Pete about that and talk to Momo as well
golly-i love percussion but i hate the worry
hahaha
(its worth it in the end)

ok...
*kisskiss*
end

ALEXS BDAY:
alex simon and i ate at simons house
i cleaned the house for alex
i wrote alex a letter saying i love her (and stuff)
simon got alex a purse that she hated
*giggle*
alex picked kyle up
we went back to simons and played phase10
end

YESTERDAY:
Went to Gaffney and shopped(for nothing)
ate outhouse
went to Lianas
went to TCBY
met kyle and kj at 10ish
went to waffle house
played chess
dropped kyle off
slept at lanz's
TOOK PICTURES(of lanz)
-golly, shes pretty

TODAY:
lanz took kyle to work
she dropped me off
i slept till 5 (when kyle got off work)
went to kyles
HE IS SO HOT!
if i could only right some of the thing he said or did...WOW
he has really grown up!

PICS:

kissey


beauty


grr


wander


siluet


question


sad


smile


side


crazy hot


want


cute


full wood


grill


b&w


natural blond


and what


so pretty


dream


sexy


tiger


aww


depressing


oh sorry


cheeky


boob shot


back shot


giggle


normal







LIKE MY WORK?
-want me to take pics of you?
-want me to capture your beauty?
-contact me!
-Id love to!

("thanks for making me pretty emmy"..."i didnt make you pretty, you are pretty i just captured your beauty in a picture")

THE FORTH:
well...kyle mary alex and i went to main street and watched fireworks
we met peter and liana there
kj met us there
kj lanz kyle and i hung out after words
it was funfunfun

MY BUG BITE:
its getting better
i went to the doctor
it swelled up to 7 inches
im on drugs now to make it go away
i hope i get better doon
DAMN CRAZY ASS SOUTH CAROLINA BUGS...THERE ALWAYS OUT TO GET ME

ALEX:
her bday is today
if you know her...
call her and tell her...
*smile*
shes 26

CHRISTIAN:
his bday was on the 6th...
i would have given anything to hug him, tell him i love him, and say happy bday
golly...i miss him

KYLE:
he is SO sweet
i said i wanted taco bell, he bought it for me
i wanted to see a movie, he took me to see it
i said i hurt, he said what can i do to make it stop
i love him!

FLORIDA:
i cant wait to go
i miss my friends
i miss band
IM COMIN SUNSHINE!
21 more days!!!

KJ:
he is so amazing
hes funny
nice
smart
sweet
a GREAT friend
i dont know what i would do without him

LANZ:
she is SO incredible
shes thoughtfull
she always means well
shes fun
pretty
nice
i hate it when people talk crap about her bc she doesnt deserve it
she really is a great person
what is there to dislike...
that shes HERSELF and not fake?
whatever...

MEGZ:
I MISS HER
...MEGZ COME BACK FROM INDIA...WE MISS YOU!!!
*frown*

LAST NIGHT:
i was at kyles
lanz picked me up
took me to my house
i changed
kj came
kj lanz kyle and i went to taco bell
then played chess at taco bell for like 2 hours
then the FANTASTIC 4... (with out megz, *pout*) saw pirates 2...
its was good
then i changed in the back of kjs car...haha
(dont ask)
then i went home
*giggle*
its was SO MUCH FUN
i love them!

BEST BUDS:
KYLE (duh)
CHRSITIAN (duh)
lanz
kj

WELL...
thats is
*kisskiss*
hope your summer is going well

SWEET DREAMS AND SILENT CRIES
THE ONLY PRIZE IS OF THE WISE
!Emmy!